Life is a roller coaster!

It has been a crazy couple of weeks.  Up and down and up and down. Unfortunately, I am  not a big fan of roller coasters and I don't go to amusement parks so weeks like these are a bit unsettling for me.  And, I ran out of the samples of the awesome medicine that the doctor gave me for my stomach.  And, said medicine is very, very expensive so hopefully what they called in today to the pharmacy will work just as well.

If anyone doesn't know, Altman was gone for a few days to run the Hood to Coast Relay.  Yes, the KTC H2C team won.  That is a whole story in itself for another time.  When he is gone, so is a piece of me.  Cheesy?  Say whatever you want.  That is how I feel and I know that Jackson can sense my anxiety which makes the roller coaster go higher and lower at each turn.

I have spent a lot of time with my child during the last week.  I love him.  I would die for him.  Let's get that out there first.  Wouldn't think twice about it....my child living and me dying...Would do it without giving it a thought.

However, as much as I love my child, I have discovered that I am not meant to be a stay at home mommy.  If you stay home with your child, please don't be offended.  I think you are amazing.  Simply amazing.  I personally just think that my relationship with Jackson is much better when we spend at least 5 hours separated each day.

He is a lot like me.  He is stubborn and very impatient.  I am sure my mom is laughing right now because isn't that how the saying goes, that your child will be just like you?  If you know me, I am pretty stubborn and can be really impatient.  I am working hard on both but we've all got challenges.  Hopefully he is picking up some positive characteristics from me too.  I hope that his stubbornness leads to good grades in school and excelling in sports (or sweater knitting) and I hope that he has my desire to help others.

Also, Jackson expects everything to go right on the first try.  Can't imagine where he gets that...

I've never known anything that can make me so furious and so irritable and then turn around and make me cry with laughter and love within the same situation.

He is two so I imagine that we'll have several days like we had today in our future.  I cannot tell you how many times I said, "No.  Stop.  Stop it now.  Don't touch that.  Don't climb on that.  What is wrong with you."  Several times today, he blatantly did exactly what I was telling him not to do.  I knew that these days were coming but I didn't know how hard it would be to not laugh at him and how hard it would be to try to redirect him to something else.

Everyday is a roller coaster.  In the midst of all the chaos, I had an epic work day yesterday.  One thing, I can't tell you yet but it is very good.  The other is that Knoxville is now an Official Runner Friendly Community.  At the peak of that high, I found out that a dear volunteer for KTC and incredible woman died yesterday morning.  I just saw her on Sunday.  She and Jackson shook hands and then she remarked that the "tadpole" was so handsome and growing up so fast.  Then, she was gone.  Just like that.

Today was a roller coaster.  I am hoping tomorrow is more of a float in the lazy river kind of day.  We'll see.  Whatever happens, I will remind myself that I am blessed to have a wonderful husband and that yes, my child is probably the most handsome kid ever and even at two he is pretty smart and pretty well-mannered.  Seriously, through the good and the bad and the ups and the downs, I want to remind myself that I am very, very lucky and that things can change in a minute.  I just hope the roller coaster doesn't stop at the top of an incline.....