To my sweet Jackson and Karson,
As Mother’s Day approaches, I want to thank you. Mother's Day is as much about you as it is about me if not more.
The funny reality of this holiday is that your father buys the flowers and gifts and you little humans create a card or keepsake that you may or may not let me have. Karson, you are currently keeping my bracelet and watermelon plant. I hope you'll give them to me soon but if not, the bracelet looks great on you.
Mother’s Day builds a hype that as a mom, I should be pampered and able to rest and be showered with gifts and love on “my” day. The world is silly that way. Your father does an amazing job of making me feel special through the smallest of details every day. And, the two of you are learning from him so I feel good about the future and how you’ll treat me and your future spouses.
I have to admit that in our early days, I thought Mother’s Day would be different. My “Norman Rockwell” didn't match our reality. You didn’t let me sleep in, you didn’t cry less, you didn't whine less, you didn’t give me a break from getting your lunch and dinner and Mother’s Day was the same as any other day of the week. But, I have changed the picture in my mind and that has made a huge difference. This Sunday won't be much different from any another day but hopefully I get some extra snuggles from you...or at least less fighting.
Thinking of Sunday leads me to thanking you both.
To Jackson, you made me a mother. Who knew! The gal that never wanted kids changed her mind and was blessed with the most amazing little person.
And to Karson, you are my baby and my last child. Each moment of each day is a reminder - happy and sad - that there are moments I will never experience again as a mother.
To both of you….You have challenged me in ways that I could not imagine. You have taken me on the highest of highs and left me sobbing where I stood and in total sadness. Every day is an adventure and some days I wonder if I will survive it while others are so carefree that I wonder why I thought this was hard.
I want to thank you for reminding me everyday that I need to keep my chin up and to forge ahead. This isn’t a job that I can quit so we just keep going and pray for the best. I’ve always been one to take on any challenge but you’ve helped me see that I can always change my tactics and my perspective and I appreciate that so much.
I had a good life before you but it seems so much happier and fuller since you both arrived. I can't imagine what we'd do every day, night, and weekend without you.
