Wednesday, February 29, 2012

February Strikes Again

On February 1, I posted on Facebook that I would take a deep breath and hope to make it out on the other side. I hate February.

In high school, a friend passed away in a car accident and then just two weeks later, my aunt died in a house fire. A few years later while I was in college, another friend died in this month. In 2009 when I was very pregnant, I had two trips to the hospital and Jason was there once.

Last year, Jackson had pneumonia in mid-February after having pink eye, RSV, and a severe ear infection.

Every year on February 1, I take a deep breath and pray for the best.

Unfortunately today, the last day of the month, I have just found out that one of our friends has passed away unexpectedly.

Tomorrow is March. Thank goodness.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Turn that frown upside down

I should be happy. I want to be happy. I hate being negative. Even a little bit negative. I like being happy even during tough times.

My husband loves me. My kid loves me. My family loves me. I should be so very happy.

I had a great weekend with the fam and spent time in the mountains. I didn't answer the phone (couldn't anyway because there was no service) or check email. I should be so very happy.

I have a job that I love and I have the most amazing opportunities to meet people. I should be so very happy.

I am healthy and the sun was out today so I should be so very happy.

No one is sick, the cars start everyday, and there is food in the fridge. I should be so very happy.

I have been seeking and reading and posting inspirational and motivational quotes trying to keep my positive outlook but today, I would like to just punch something or someone. Yep, it is true. How's that for honesty?

Am I mad at anyone or anything in particular? Not really. I am frustrated with circumstances and people. I am frustrated with things and people and situations that I cannot control.

I feel selfish when my mood is bad. I feel ungrateful when I am not finding the positive in everything. I have a four or five blogs that I have written and not posted because I feel like someone might judge me for being in a bad mood. I feel like complaining is just wrong.

Tomorrow will be fine. I will wake up and run and the sun might shine again and hopefully my bad mood will be gone. If not, well tough. Life goes on. I will go to Jackson's parent/teacher conference (yes, in pre-school) and I will give my presentation about health and wellness to a room filled with restaurant managers. I will finish an article I am writing for a regional magazine and I will write at least two media releases. Life will go on and I will get out of this funk.

I am probably allowed to be in a bad mood once in awhile but I would prefer to just be very happy.




Thursday, February 9, 2012

feel good day!

Today was a feel good day. I feel like I have been terribly behind all year. Right now, we are in full swing in the 2012 race schedule and CHKM prep. Races every weekend (ours or someone else's) and the big daddy coming up on April 1. Add in daily administrative duties, researching sponsors, community initiatives, and the launch of two new programs and my days (into my nights) have been quite long. I'm not complaining, but I like to be organized and I feel like things have been a bit hectic since January 1.

Today was special. I didn't go to any meetings. I turned the phone off. I logged out of the email accounts. I spent the entire morning catching up. I had the day off from running so I grabbed a cup of coffee as soon as the fellas left and got to work.

After lunch, I headed out to get the oiled changed on the Tahoe. The service place had Wi-Fi and in the time I waited on my car, I was able to knock my inbox down from roughly 90 (valid) emails to 40ish in one of my email accounts. I hit up the Target for an rare solo trip. I was able to take my time and pick up a few items that I have been forgetting in previous visits.

Jason took Little Altman to Oak Ridge so I had bonus quiet time for working. I got more items knocked off the to-do list. I had time to make dinner and was able to put together the Tommy Big Loader for Little Altman to play with before we ate. I even got a load of laundry done today.

Today was a good day. I still have a lot to do. A lot. But, days like today help me regroup and remember that it can all be done. Now, I am gonna check a few more emails, watch Swamp People, eat a mini cupcake, and head to bed. Tomorrow is a big day!

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